There is nothing like a little Frank, Dean, Ella, Louis, Etta and Tony to make the world sing after a long day at work. Actually I take that back, it has been an insane 6 weeks at work and I feel like I can finally see the light at the end of the tunnel. Okay, it's not just the music, I also had a little caffeine at about 3:00 this afternoon and it seems to have done wonders to my mood and energy level. Enough energy to already have two loads of laundry done and dinner in the oven after being home for only two hours. Not bad if I do say so myself. Yes I am tooting my own horn. :)
I can only assume that every decade of a person's life represents special challenges. The first ten years is officially the most blissful. Too bad you don't actually realize it when you are in that phase, you only realize it after you grow up and have responsibilities. Can't I just stay at home and play with my dollies all day? Geez.
The second decade is decidedly the worst. Again, you don't realize this until you reach a later time in life and can look back and say 'Wow, that really WAS crappy wasn't it?'. Maybe it's also the worst because you go from the best phase to one that is only filled with change, uncertainty and a feeling that you are already a grown up but you really aren't, you just think you are. Again, you don't realize that you were a stupid idiot instead of the level headed responsible adult you thought you were until you are looking at your old self in the rear view mirror. It's terrible isn't it? We can never truly see ourselves and what is going on around us clearly until it's all over with.
This brings us to the third decade in life; the one I am tackling as we speak. By tackling I mean sometimes it is kicking my butt and other times I have it in a choke hold. This is only my take on it now, as I know from what little experience I have, is that when I look back at this decade from the next one my perception we be entirely different. What I do know about this decade called the twenties is that it is freaking amazing and the most crappy time ever all rolled into one. It is like a fist fight between the first two decades of life and nobody is quite sure who is winning. Does that make sense? Well if you were 25 then you would totally understand.
You are constantly battling with yourself. The self that is scared and unsure how to grow up and which way to go and how to get there; and the self that wants to grow up and go here or there and sees friends and family going down roads that they want to go down too. This is exacerbated in my own psyche more than most people as it seems that my generation seemed to condense their teens and twenties into a much shorter time than people like me. I can honestly say that I know more people I graduated with who are married and or have kids than those who don't. I haven't decided how I feel about this other than the fact that I am glad I am not one of them. I mean no offense to those who fall into that category because everyone is different, but I cannot image having to deal with all the changes and emotions that have taken place for me in the last six years on top of real adult things like having a family. I guess that is also why I know several people my age who have already gotten divorced and or have kids with multiple people. Okay, I have somehow gotten very off track because this post is nowhere close to what I had intended. Let me regain my thoughts...
What I meant to say is that when you are in your twenties you spend most of your time wondering if you are where you should be and thinking about how where you are is not where you thought you would be. Thinking that your life isn't moving fast enough and that it is moving to fast at the same time. I can only hope that the third decade is easier. I hope this because for twenty years things are confusing and stupid and unpredictable and I can't possibly imaging doing this for another 10 years. Really, where am I going with this...
See, this is what happens when you have a lot of energy and listen to your favorite songs and have no clear purpose for your blog post. You get WAY off track several times...
aci's birthday tricycle/mauling of kitties and other miscellaneous things also do not qualify for this post due to the fact they they are terrible pictures. So instead I will put up a couple random plant pictures from September and a picture from a friends wedding in...well I don't actually remember when it was but the photo booth was AMAZING!
Pineapple Sage...
Tuberous Begonia
Toad Lily. Okay, so me and my macro setting are still figuring each other out. See, I want it to focus on the thingy in the center and my camera really wanted to focus on the inside of the flower. I have about 10 pictures that are almost exactly the same of me trying to change the focal point with no real success. Moral of the story: these flowers are really cool and they don't look like an amphibian.
Yes, I took a picture of a picture and although the picture was low quality and grainy I love it nonetheless. If there is only one thing me and David have in common it is the fact that we don't really try to get our pictures taken. I am not sure why this is but the reality is that this is one of the only pictures I have of the two of us in the last almost 8 years. Kind of sad isn't it. The problem is that neither of us is photogenic so even if we did take pictures together I wouldn't publish the majority of them anyway. So that is why I like this picture. Also because we really can be ridiculous at times when I am not so consumed with grown up things and he can remind me to just be a kid sometimes and stop worrying so much.
Since this was the most random post ever I am not really sure how to end it, so I will end with the words of another of my many favorite oldies songs. I have also decided to dedicate this post and song to my mom because she is one of the three or so people who read my blog and also because she is probably the best mom anyone could ask for. For all the times when life has kicked my but and threatened to send me over the edge. I can't tell you how much it means to have you there to tell me that everyone is crazy too and it's not just me. Also, for all the times to come because I am sure I have years before I outgrow all of my 'life crisis' situations.
Oh yeah and also because we are so much alike and that is the thing that I am most proud of.
Van Morrison
Days Like This
When it's not always raining
there'll be days like this
When there's no one complaining
there'll be days like this
Everything falls into place
like the flick of a switch
Well my momma told me
there'll be days like this
When you don't need to worry
there'll be days like this
When no one's in a hurry
there'll be days like this
When you don't get betrayed
by that old Judas kiss
Oh my momma told me
there'll be days like this
When you don't need an answer
there'll be days like this
When you don't meet a chancer
there'll be days like this
When all the parts of the puzzle
start to look like they fit
Then I must remember
there'll be days like this
When everyone is upfront
and they're not playing tricks
When you don't have no freeloaders
out to get their kicks in
When it's nobody's business
the way that you wanna live
I just have to remember
there'll be days like this
When no one steps on my dreams
there'll be days like this
When people understand what I mean
there'll be days like this
When you bring out the changes
of how everything is
Well my momma told me
there'll be days like this
Oh my momma told me
there'll be days like this
Well my momma told me
there'll be days like this
Oh my momma told me
there'll be days like this
Oh my momma told me
there'll be days like this
there'll be days like this
When there's no one complaining
there'll be days like this
Everything falls into place
like the flick of a switch
Well my momma told me
there'll be days like this
When you don't need to worry
there'll be days like this
When no one's in a hurry
there'll be days like this
When you don't get betrayed
by that old Judas kiss
Oh my momma told me
there'll be days like this
When you don't need an answer
there'll be days like this
When you don't meet a chancer
there'll be days like this
When all the parts of the puzzle
start to look like they fit
Then I must remember
there'll be days like this
When everyone is upfront
and they're not playing tricks
When you don't have no freeloaders
out to get their kicks in
When it's nobody's business
the way that you wanna live
I just have to remember
there'll be days like this
When no one steps on my dreams
there'll be days like this
When people understand what I mean
there'll be days like this
When you bring out the changes
of how everything is
Well my momma told me
there'll be days like this
Oh my momma told me
there'll be days like this
Well my momma told me
there'll be days like this
Oh my momma told me
there'll be days like this
Oh my momma told me
there'll be days like this
Two things:
ReplyDeleteOne, I have a picture of you and David that is cute, but I won't post it, but you can have it if you want and then you can post it.
Two, the next decade won't get easier, just different. You'll see that when you get to be 35.
:)
Dear Beth-
ReplyDeleteI love you so very much-
Momma
I will take the picture, who knows what I will use it for. Maybe I will even print it! I am okay with different, change is good.
ReplyDeleteLove you too mom. That song always reminds me of you. :)